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they say you shouldn't name your things because you get emotionally attached to them...so i never did.

but one day, my laptop started calling himself Andy and now, my room is introducing himself as Kasino. perhaps my alter ego named them. the names made sense though.

i may have named my laptop Andy because i may not want to call him hAndycapped. sounds bad right? but really, he is handicapped no matter how he hides it. with his dead battery, almost-blind screen, artificial keyboard, Alzheimer-struck memory, bruised speakers, and slow-processing brain, it's Andyniable. but who said he is useless? he has never left me. laging Andyan! he's been wanting to leave but tries to be strong to stay by my side. carry on my dear! Andyto lang ako.

i may have named my room Kasino Royale because he acts like a real casino- though the smallest any gambler might come to know. he has no sense of time- no clock nor windows to make me realize if it's night or day. however, he doesn't have roulettes, poker tables, slot machines, chips, and money like other casinos but i'm fucking sure he has lots of memories. and mind you, he's good at making me forget- forget the outside world and the cards i have to deal with. i'm his only gambler by the way and he doesn't need more. i'm his royalty.

my tv too got a name. i only knew about it when he died of old age. he was screaming his name until his last breath- maybe, to let me remember him. of course, i will never forget him- the one redhead who knows how to comfort me and knew me by just the look in my face. he named himself after his rich heritage. he was the great Sony Bravo III.

i never realized but i got attached after all...even if i didn't intend to.

and now, another one has finally gotten himself a name. i've been ignoring him but he's been persistent so i gave in. i won't tell his name but i'm willing to whisper it to you.

come near me. who knows? i might even spell it out...

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