.a.whole.new.world.

looking back, i feel so blessed to be in the best schools-from elem up to now, college. when i hear people wanting to learn a different language, i smile silently 'cos i've been there. when i see people not knowing some things, i feel proud because i believe i know more. when i pass by people, i wish they carry the same id that i have.

i am not looking down at other schools. i am not belittling those people who failed the entrance exam. i am not discriminating those who are not part of my community. i am , more of, sad that i can't share with you the feeling of being in this school- not because it is the best school but because it showed me a different world i never knew co-existed with the world i grew up knowing.

i don't really know how to explain those last 17 words. i can't even tell if that's really what i meant. i don't think words are enough to let you know how i feel. all i know is i belong here and nowhere else. but don't you think this world is perfect. yes, it's beautiful but it can never be perfect. though, at the end of the day, it will always be elegant.

it wasn't really my dream to be in this school. i never really showed interest in this school or i wasn't just really that excited to go to college. though i was a good student, i never really liked going to school. as fate had it, i had someone else's dream. from my first school day up to i-even-forgot-when, i find everything surreal. i never got excited. that was an understatement. years passed but, still, i was forever adjusting until everything grew on me. then i realized, this is not just a school. this is a life. this is a fucking life! and i don't know...i woke up being in love with this life. or maybe this has been the life i wanted- free. well, kind of...

again, it wasn't really my dream to be in this school. more so, it wasn't my dream to be here for more than my default 5-year stay. i'm going 6 years now. those years i don't even know how to describe- full of failures, perhaps. these are the failures i never even thought i would have. these are the failures i know existed but was afraid to know. these are the failures that made me free.

this school is the best in more reasons than one. life here is not really about the knowledge you acquire but how you acquire those bits and pieces of knowledge. it is not about what you learn but how you learn. it is not about what you are but how you have become.

looking back, i feel so blessed to be in the best schools. but now, i can say i'm not caged anymore. i can now take learning in my own ways and perspective. i can say i'm fucking free now. well, kind of...

have i told you how proud i am to be in this fucking school no matter how it brings me heartaches, headaches, and body aches? you have no fucking idea... =))

w.t.

these are some words from 2 of my professors that i will always hold on to.

"You are UP students. You are not for employment. You should be heads of companies. You are leaders." - AS

""It's an A-plus to be a UP graduate." - FS

w.w.t.

i pity those who didn't choose UP given that they had a chance to be in UP. you really missed a lot!