.tattarrattat.

i've been always aware that no matter how many people come and go in my room, at the end of the day, i'm alone just the same.

...after all, i like being alone in my room.

i like just keeping quiet and listening to whatever is happening around.

i like just sitting still and pretending i'm thinking or doing something.

i like just doing things on my own beat and letting them find its rhythm.

...but i never liked being left alone.

i never liked watching someone go out of the room with his shoes on.

i never liked hearing closing doors, fading footsteps, and goodbyes.

i never liked seeing someone take the taxi as i watch him by the window.

...because it reminds me that once i had company.

it reminds me that i had someone to share my thoughts with and nonsense things.

it reminds me that i had someone to pass things to me when i can't reach them.

it reminds me that i had someone to look at and never having to say anything.

...i guess i need a knock on my door after all...

w.t.

...i feel like i'm in one of wong kar wai's sad stories.

...i just watched a movie where it had a circular narration- the beginning is same with the ending and vice versa.

...tattarrattat is the longest palindrome which means a knock on the door.